September 1, 2009 - Disgraced singer Chris Brown is still struggling to come to terms with assaulting his ex-girlfriend Rihanna following their headline-grabbing fight in February, admitting he "can't believe" his own actions.

The fallen Kiss Kiss star has been sentenced to five years probation and six months of hard labor after pleading guilty to attacking Rihanna. In his first televised interview since his arrest earlier this year, Brown confesses to talk show host Larry King he remembers little about the events leading up to the violent altercation, which left the Bajan beauty battered and bruised.

The police report of the incident described how Brown threatened to kill Rihanna after repeatedly punching, biting and choking her as she struggled to get out of his car following a pre-Grammy party in Los Angeles. A shocking police photo showing the full extent of Rihanna's injuries leaked shortly after Brown's arrest and the singer admits he feels ashamed whenever he sees the image. Brown tells King, "When I look at it now, it's just like, wow, I can't - I can't believe that - that actually happened."

However, the 20 year old is fast facing up to the consequences of his actions and is ready to begin his community sentence: "They want me to pick up trash, remove graffiti. I'm a hard worker. It's something I'm willing to do... I made a mistake and it was just something that I have to live up and own (sic)."

Brown, who has also been ordered to stay away from his ex for five years, admits he's still in love with Rihanna and finds it "difficult" seeing her linked to other men: "At the end of the day, I mean, we're not together, so, if she's happy, I'm cool."

The interview is schedule to air on Wednesday.